So normally I’d post a “DIY Links of the Week” today…but I found the blogosphere strangely lacking in DIY tutes this week…or maybe I wasn’t on it looking hard enough. Of course, there’s always …love, Maegan and her great DIY’s (this week a Prada chandelier necklace DIY, above), and OnePrettyThing‘s daily roundups…but otherwise, nothing really caught my eye. (Please let me know if there’s any majorly fashionable DIY tutorials out there that I’ve missed!)
But instead I wanted to throw this out there and see if anyone else who maintains a blog is going through this too.
(img source: Getty Images)
Yup, that image pretty much sums up my last 2 to 3 months. (Love that she’s either plugged in to her computer, or she’s using the power cord as a banana clip. Gotta be fashionable whilst collapsed!!)
I’m currently just starting Week 3 of my second bronchitis infection in a year. (My last one, if some of you may recall, began March 30 of last year, the day before we had to go to Hawaii for a wedding, and lasted until mid-August. Even after I “got over” it, when I was working late [on this blog], and/or dehydrated, suddenly *cough cough* would come burbling up out of me, unbidden, with no warning. I’ve never been a coughy person before…just after the bronchitis it’s like my lungs would start to weaken if the rest of my body was tired or run down. The surprise coughing would only happen once a week or so, especially when I was staying up late or pushing myself really hard to cut back on sleep and get a lot done otherwise.)
So now, after 3 colds in a row after getting back from Hawaii this year, (the second cold bringing laryngitis for a week with it – FUN!), I’ve now come done with bronchitis, AGAIN. I also have pityriasis roasacea (2nd infection in my life – it’s like a rash on your torso, arms, and neck which appears for no known reason, has no treatments, no cure, and just goes away on its own about 8 – 12 weeks later) and a mucocele on my inner lip which I can’t get an oral surgeon to remove until May 25 [10 weeks after I first got it] b/c that was their first appointment available. LOVELY. I’ve not been able to exercise since getting back from Hawaii due to the recurrent colds and bronchitis (except the odd walk around the neighborhood here and there), and have added another 5 pounds to my frame, losing almost all the muscle tone I gained last summer while training with P90X.
In other words, I’m a mess physically. Well, none of these diseases/infections/afflictions are particularly serious…it’s just that it feels like I’m doing something wrong here, like the balance of my life is off. For example:
Here is me in Hawaii on our first trip in early February for Hub’s best friend’s wedding:
and here is me in Hawaii (at the beach, Hanauma Bay, to be exact) when we were there again in March for my brother-in-law’s wedding.
Yes, folks, I was on the beach, in Hawaii, WORKING on my articles on Fashion Week for FashionTribes.com (which have STILL not been posted – Lesley, what are you doing???) and for write-ups for this blog, while Hub and Lil Tot and all my inlaws frolicked in the water.
Now, of course this was my choice – no one put a gun to my head. Wasn’t that stupid of me? But in turn I got stuff done, and I faithfully updated this blog almost every single day, and answered formspring.me questions, and networked online, and added widgets and whatnots and things day in and day out to this site. Oh, and navigated going to New York Fashion Week, and seeing 9 shows, and conducting 5 interviews (many of which I haven’t posted yet…*sigh*), and taking photos throughout.
But at the end of it, here I am, sick yet again. I’ve imposed this once-a-day posting schedule on myself, I know that, but at the same time, it feels…almost pointless. My day has gotten to be where I am doing so little of the things I enjoy (making things, spending time with my family, re-connecting with friends, gardening, working out, watching movies, surfing the internet, laughing) and instead is 3 – 9 hours a day of sitting in front of this computer, writing, editing photos, creating posts, reformatting the blog, researching, posting on other forums/blogs…or taking numerous photos.
I work every single day on this blog. I do write, sometimes: “I’m not posting today,” or I skip a post in a day (but I’ll double up on posts on another day to make up for it) – but I’m still checking email, answering formspring.me questions, answering Cut Out + Keep questions, responding to Threadbanger comments, editing photos for future tutorials, hashing out my editorial schedule, pulling inspiration for a number of sources, combing the internet for DIY info… I mean, I’m on the WWW every single day working on this – whatever this is. I work almost 24 hours a day some days – I check my email first thing in the morning (6:30 AM), and often posting something is the last thing I do before I go to bed around 12:30 AM. Some days I’ll be working until 2 or 3 in the morning. I’ll be on the computer numerous times throughout the day to deal with the huge amount of email I get, comments/questions that need to be responded to, etc. Plus, I work 7 days a week doing this- there are no “days off” from this, from trying to be available and helpful to everyone who requests it. I work 40 hours a week on this…and the funny thing is, to be completely honest, the revenue I make from this blog (since I don’t sell advertising space just yet) is barely enough to buy a grande drink at Starbucks once a month.
So why do it, right?
How many of us would work a full-time job at something, around the clock, 7 days a week, for $5 a month?
But that’s what blogging is, for many of us.
There is a great post over on Wardrobe Refashion entitled Free is Expensive that speaks to this issue, if you are interested. (click thru the links to the articles she provided if you want to know more re: “Your Own Personal Blogging Sweatshop” hehe.) The webmaster [blogmaster?] of the site has decided to make it a paid membership site in order to make it worth all the work she’s put into it, and many people objected to this, so she posted about how much work blogging really is, and how many of us who are putting out quality content don’t see a dim
e for all that work.
I, meanwhile, have left FashionTribes as Contributing Editor, and now post once-a-week step-by-step tutorials for Threadbanger.com.
As you have probably noticed, I have barely been able to make DIY tutorials for this blog here in the meantime. I really want to. But moreso I just want to make things, because I like making things, and that’s how this ol’ blog got started in the first place: I thought “I’ll share with everybody what I’ve made and tell them how to make something just like it!” The response was phenomenal. (Imagine me, squeeing, running around the room saying “They like me! They really, really like me!”) Yes, validation.
I know I am in the wrong since I did not hash out a business plan before starting a blog, nor did I create a specific monetization goal or a squeeze page or any info-product or upsell or anything tied in to Chic Steals. I started it because it was just doing something that I liked: finding bargains on the internet, making stuff and showing other people how to make it too. But it’s gotten to the point where I can’t keep putting so much time into it – where it’s literally affecting my health, my family life, my ability to get a full-time job – if there is so little “payoff” from it. I’m obviously not a very smart businessperson because I would have done something prior to this to make Chic Steals more “worth my while,” not let it get to this point where I start to feel dissatisfaction with the situation.
Having followers, “meeting” you guys through comments, having online conversations with you – it’s fabulous, like a virtual sisterhood, and that’s what keeps me going many days. (Don’t doubt it! I’m not trying to minimize your readership and what it means to me.:-) But in the end, it really is virtual, and if I don’t turn my computer on for the day, there is no connection to any of you. I’ve begun to feel like I spend just too much darn time in the virtual world and not enough time in the real one, and that’s why I keep getting ill with one thing after another, and why this blogging thing is feeling like “work that I don’t get paid for.” Does that make sense?
So anyway…this is just a long-winded way of saying There are going to be some changes happening here.
Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not next week…but there will be some changes in the offing. Total redesign of this site. Re-branding. Narrowing down of content. (Wait a minute…isn’t that more work???)
As of right now, I’m trying to keep the computer off more, cut down on email, not jump to answer questions or comments immediately, and perhaps…*shudders*…not posting every day.
Eek!
Plus, I’m trying to eat more healthy, get out more, and get back to making things without snapping a photo every 5 seconds.
So if I slow down in posts, I’m sorry. If I can’t post a how-to video for a DIY, I’m sorry. If I don’t visit your blog, or don’t respond to a kind comment you have left me, I’m sorry.
The above is why.
Sorry, this post ended up super-long. I could be inscrutable and lofty and just post some editorial photos with a one-sentence comment but that’s not me. I guess my thing is transparency. “This is how, this is why…” and all that. I’m sure a lot of you don’t want to hear some random blogger ranting about how hard she works and how she gets no money for it, and the love she gets from it isn’t enough anymore. But that’s the long and short of it.
But any of you out there – how many of you are feeling similar in regards to your own blogs, and how much working on them starts to encroach on your lives?
Thank you, as always, for your time and readership.
xoxox
Carly
Sunsmart! Great work on the Slip Slop Slap
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Oh my goodness Carly!!! Pityriasis roasacea! I've had this too!! 2 years ago. exactly as you describe, my doctor told me what it was and sure enough it disappeared with no trace scars left.
…funny though… I was then diagnosed with a yeast intolerance. A build up in my system…which decreased my immune system's efficiency. Leaky gut syndrome.
This was caused by too much fruit (fructose is evil!), peanut butter, corn and red grapes!!
I now believe that these 2 are connected. Worth researching Carly.
…Google 'yeast intolerance' and read…it may make so much sense to you… even though I am an activity demon with a fast metabolism, I was just putting on weight, feeling sluggish, 'brain fogged'…and very un motivated.
I understand all that you say Carly… and I agree. Your blog is a hard and generous blog to maintain. The tutorials, the tips, the posts, the networking, etc, this is all hard work, it takes a lot of time to put together! Time that costs money! This is what magazines with fulltime staff do! Of course you are blogged out!
My blog is an extension of what I already do, doesn't encroach on my life, plus it's a simple vanity affair. This is what I wore, thought, saw, felt, etc.
I will write again, I'm a bit tired, it's 1:19am and I'm trying to catch up with my fave blogs after being away for a few days. Sending you much warmth Carly honey, please Google 'yeast intolerance'…you never know…
I want to let you know that I support you! I found your blog after your first recent post on threadbanger, and have since become a faithful reader. I hope that you get well soon, REST a little bit, and make this work better for you! Much virtual love to you!! 🙂
maybe post a poll on what content your readers like to see most as to weed out some content.
I feel bad commenting because it's sort of adding to your work load… but I wanted to let you know we care! I don't blog neeear as often as you, but I do allow myself to take up soooo much time on the computer, dreaming of doing things but not actually DOING them. So GOOD FOR YOU! Glad you are taking some “me” time, or rather, “you” time lol. Best of luck! And get better soooon!!
Carly, i just want to let you know how much i apreciate your hard work!! I am not a blogger myself, but i can imagine all the time and effort you put into this!! I went through a similar situation a year and a half ago, i was always sick and weak and it was complicated handle my personal life in all aspects.
Take careee!!
Kisses from Spain.
Alicia
Thank you ladies, for your kind comments! I felt a little worried about sharing this with all of you (since sure it's chic-er and more businesslike for me to be constantly chipper and upbeat in fluffy fashion-y posts), but at the same time I also felt like I had to reveal what I've been going through to humanize this blog a little bit and distinguish it from all those other “advice-style” type blogs.
Thank you @Graciella, and Alex for your support & thoughts! I am definitely feeling a little better (one day at a time!) but am still trying to figure out a better model for this blog so that I can maximize useful content but cut down on the amount maintaining it is encroaching into my family life.
@Jeanie Chang: Will do! Coming soon. Thanks for your suggestion!
@Dusk: thank you so much for your warm and generous comment…after googling “yeast intolerance” and reading about the symptoms I'm beginning to think that this might be a possibility and will go get tested for it (plus the foods you mentioned are like my favorite foods in the world!!)…Thank you thank you thank you for bringing this up!
May all of you have a wonderful day and take some time out for yourselves!<3
xoxo
Carly
I'm very new to your blog but still look forward to reading it! I did respond to the poll thing you posted after you posted this entry as well.
Although I haven't been having the health issues you've been, err, “blessed” with…I know what you mean about spending so much time blogging that it feels like another job. I don't do fashion blogging at all, but I run this blog (just a blog about my boyfriend and I, Connecticut Yankees, who relocated to the South last year), a travel blog (I used to be a travel agent and I worked at Walt Disney World for years during and just after college), and a personal blog. Plus, I write for the examiner.com site. I'm really just trying to get my writing “out there” but I've started so “late” in live that it feels like I'll never break through. Sigh.
As for the DIY Fashion Blogs out there….i'd love to get added to your list. check me out
http://www.avidaccents.blogspot.com
i am a free designer, possibly you like to use some of my pictures? i think it would be fun and fit on your articles 🙂
absolutely enjoy your page! write me a mail please in case you want to see my pics